Wonderings and Updates...

Wow. Been a long time.

Okay, STATUS CHANGE! *HONK *HONK! This sissy clownie slut girl is now a Live-In Subbie! Thats right! i have the absolute JOY of serving my Mistress DAILY! **YAAAAAAY**

That's right! Officially owned and in full service. Today i live as i desire. I've been full CD now for a month, gone totally hairless and applying my own makeup. Oh, did i mention the PINK HAIR?!?!! OMG! It Is SOOOOO AWESOME! hehehehe, i can't express how great i feel inside every time i look in the mirror!

Okay, so its not the best piccy i ever took... but you get the idea :P

And this is not just in-the-house type stuff... noooo... this is go-out-to-the-mall-holiday-shopping!

So no more closets. No more lies and denials. No more imagining. No more wishing. It's about doing. Being. Loving.

i have The. Best. Family! my sisters are amazing. i would have just died, if not for their care and support and patience. my Owner, well, how could there really be any words to describe. She leaves me breathless. i am the most loved girl in the world. ^^

So if anyone still visits and reads this stuff, drop a comment and maybe i'll tell some stories about my new life.

Another Sexy Story

A beautiful tale of a young man's journey from school yard bully to feminized sissy slut..... presented in a slow, sensual pace that is captivating and familiar....

"That's right, Stephanie, get his cock nice and wet. Your pussy is going to be really tight if this is your first time" She was speaking loudly, obviously loud enough for the customer to clearly hear. His hips thrust forward more, eager at the idea of fucking a virgin. 

Sugar's hand had slipped down towards my butt. Hovering just long enough to scoop more cum into her hand she expertly pulled my g-string to one side and started to caress my arse. 

 "This is your pussy". She whispered in my ear, "Just like a girl you have a pussy solely so men can fuck you. Always remember that". Sugar rubbed a finger across my arse slowly. "As you suck him, remember that his wonderful cock will soon be inside you. He is going to use your pussy to make his cock cum. He likes being in your mouth but I am sure he would like to cum inside you with his lovely cock. Would you like that Stephanie? Would you like him to fuck you tight virgin pussy?

I moaned, a sign that that is what I wanted. And I wanted it so badly. Somewhere deep down I felt that I would become a complete girl if I was fucked. It didn't matter that I could not see the guy. I did not even know what the guy looked like even as I slurped over the end of his magnificent cock. I wanted him inside me. And Sugar was helping me prepare lubricating my arse with warm cum. 

"It's time" Sugar whispered "Turn around darling".

The full sexy reading material found here.

I couldn't have said it better myself

This spoke to me deeply, had to share:

"Roberta lay there with a slowly shrinking cock in her arse feeling used and degraded but at the same time euphoric from the experience."

Yes.

Read for yourself here.

Perfect Sissy Slut Hypno

The first few words described how i feel perfectly. She has read my mind. She knows what i am. And then She gave me what i needed.

Yes please. Thank You. ^^

Enjoy this amazing vid. This is a good canidate for headphones to get the true aural experience. Of course, i go full screen, with a bit of mental lubricant of your choice (this sissy is a stoner). It's mid length, but after an initial first viewing, i HAD to get my trusty purple plug, a quick gag session to lubricate... and UP she went! Watching again, then again... lots and lots of flowing pre to drink as my mind went from the commands to the pictures to my fantasies to my slutty history... back and forth and back and forth again.

Unfortunately, i almost got lost in my delicious pre... and almost didn't hear the visitor approching. Hehe... i wonder if they heard me fumble and struggle to cover my drooling clit. After i had cooled down, i knew i had to share. ^^

Enjoy!


Taste good bitches? Now be a good girl and go suck a dick! :)

**kisses!**

The Consequences of Anal Training

i lay on my back, legs in the air, the gusset of my lace fringed panties pulled aside. my eggs delightfully trapped in the cute cotton, while my chubby sissy stick poked out the top enough to rub and fondle. Her wet lips caressed my thigh as she licked my clean underside, lubing me for the main event.

A small tickle, a tiny bit of touch, barely perceptible."You're loose."

"MMmmmm...." was all i could reply. my sissy thoughts racing immediately to the constant pounding my rubber Daddy delivers to my needy pussy almost daily.

"Why are you so loose?" Some soft rubbing inside. She is humping my leg slightly, i can feel the warmth radiating from her sex.

"You make me hot *sexy smile*" The safest answer.

i hunch my hips and open my cheeks trying to feel a bit more of that amazing thumping inside my hole. It's not enough. Reaching around, i feel her index finger curled, she's only using her middle finger. A little proding and manipluating, and i get her first two digits inside.

"Mmmmmm" My pre flows over my crown, wetting and allowing my sissy fingers to rub it shamelessly. Opening my eyes, i watch her breasts heave and she humps and rubs her quim harder on me, her arm thrusting as she works my bitch hole.

i hump up and down, showing her my need to fuck. It's not enough. Another reach and i have three fingers opening my cunt nicely. That's it. That's the  magic.

Rubbing, rubbing my clitty. Eyes slitted. She's fucking me. Fucking my hole. i am muttering the most faggiest of utterances. "Fuck me. Fuck my Pussy. Oh, Fuck, Thats Right.. Fuck Me, Oh Fuck, Fuck My Puusssyyy!" i cum hard. Over and over. Six, seven hard loads. Not a spurt - that doesn't seem to happen anymore. It's more like a flow. A flooding overflowing the constraints of my piss hole. Flowing over my swollen head and over my squeezing fingers.

She keeps me penetrated as i come down. my sissy hips hunching up and down slightly, my hole still spasming less and less. With a steady pull, she empties my hole as she climbs over, rubbing her sex into the mess on my belly, quickly shrinking clitty and my poor abused panties.

Staying doggy style over me, her tits in my face, i service her digitally, the way she prefers - wishing the whole time i could lick her clean.

---- A short time later ---

"So..... why were you so fucking open?"

"i don't know.... i guess i needed it."

"Are you gonna wear your girly panties today?" <sneer>

"i dont know." i didn't.

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Last time i i removed my hair... well.. last few times.... i've been making the clean area larger and larger. What started as only shaving my clit and eggs, has progressed to the tops of my thighs to just bellow my bellybutton, with a sexy patch above my pricklette. Last time i even shaved a small ring around my nipples. As i am quite hairy, it is noticeable, however its a small ricng of clean area, so not hugely different.

i hope my strategy of slow but consistent limit stretching is working on her. So far... no blow ups. But then again, her history is to take take take then explode. i hope that doesn't happen. How long will this take?

Soft Futa and Shop Hypno...

How has no one re-blogged THIS a bajillion times?

Soft fading photos of shops, futas, TGs, with a couple of gifs mixed in. 3/5 stars.

Take a hit or three, lean back, trance, stroke and watch at least 5 times!


Did you enjoy that slut?

Sissy Needs a Playmate

Are you a sissy?

Are you a sissy lover?

Are you on the East Coast USA? Philly area?

Would you like to play?

This sissy NEEDS a regular... friend. she should NOT be sucking strange dick after strange dick after strange dick and swallowing multiple strange loads. It's too dangerous.

This sissy is looking for a friend. Someone ...close. Someone to help her feel girly. Someone to appreciate her girly mind. Someone to help her shop, and dress, and maybe... assist with her makeup.

If you are a lonely Daddy looking for a regular dump... then drop me a line.

If you are a Mommy looking for a sissy to serve You... then drop me a line.

If you are a sissy gurl too and want someone to share with... maybe someone to guide... please... drop me a line.

This sissy is very submissive. This sissy desires to serve. This sissy has much to learn.

A Mommy who will laugh as She trains my pussy and owns my mouth and humiliates me is one dream. A Daddy who will use my form for His pleasure, who will treat me like the slut he knows that i am, is another dream. A sissy gurl friend i can ask questions of, who wants to share, who wants a loving sister to cuddle and have fun times with, is the dream trifecta.

i...need... to feel like a girl. To have others treat me as a girl. To be desired as a girl.

me... in my dreams

Hit the Jump for my sissy resume'

Not sure about this... feedback desired please

**UPDATE!!**
Just in case you dont know.. if i ask for feedback.... if i ask for your opinion.. PLEASE leave me a comment.. good OR bad... i am truly desirous of YOUR opinion... YES YOU!. Tell me what you think, i really want to know.It can only take just a moment of your time. A small thing to grant me, especially if you've even enjoyed any of my postings... now is the time to give back. PLEASE, just your opinion, thats all i ask.
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Ok, so recent RL developments leave this wanna be sissy very poor.

My sissy supplies include:
1 8" realistic Dildo
1 7" failing silky vibrator
4 pair of panties (2 of which dont fit, another are ripped)
1 bra (pretty but too small)
2 pair of totally torn and running thigh high stockings
1 pair of strappy heels

i am needing more, at least another couple of pair of panties, maybe a pretty sundress, and of course, im always looking for something to fill fill my pussy in new and unique ways.

Trouble is..... without a supportive home environment, or any funds to speak of... going out shopping for these items i desire is difficult at best, and life ruining at worst. my daily perusal of various sissy websites finds many girls receiving pretty things from admirers. Sooo... now i'm torn.

i want pretty things too. i dont wanna be one of 'those' girls who just blatantly begs for stuff... but then again... if someone wants to treat me... then maybe i should make it easy for them? What do you think? If i have a wishlist available... am i being a greedy bitch? i'm not requiring anyone to buy anything.... but if my RL friends wanted too, then i would expect them to need some kind of list of my desires as well.... idk.

Bottom line.. i dont wanna give the wrong impression, i'm NOT a meterialistic girl. Truthfully? i just like to be treated girly. When i dress i am filled with joy. When i play, i feel so much like a submissive good girl, it brings me so much joy on a level that has nothing to do with sex. When strangers call me a girl, or a pretty woman (in SL), omg, can i tell you how awesome it is?!? So.. maybe.. this would be a good way of receiving those feelings. To be a girl receiving gifts from others, encouraging my self transformation, assisting me with my self realization....  it need it soo bad.

i guess... for now.... i'll post my list in the side bar... and see what kind of feed back i get. Please, positive or negative, i want to hear what you think, take a moment and tell me please? Am i being a greedy whore? Or is this acceptable for those that may have the urge?

I am very concerned with how others view me, and giving the incorrect  impression, so please, just a word or two, please tell me.

The Sissy Pilot: a reveiw

Sara over at 'Saragirl's Sissy Confessions' is the author of many wonderful works of erotica, the latest of which, The Sissy Pilot i've recently read.

This book is captivating, every page absorbing me into the life of little wimpy Dana, and his hot but neglected wife, Tiffany. It starts out typically enough for the genre, establishing the unfortunate predicament Dana has gotten himself into. He has managed to find himself out of work, living off of Tiff, and with the resulting lack of self esteem, finds himself not being able to perform his manly duties - either out of, or even inside, the bedroom.

Of course he loves her very much and has no desire to see her burdoned.... or unfufillled in any way. What a delicious little set-up.

Soon enough an offer for steady employment falls into his lap.... with one small catch. He MUST appear in everyway, in look and actions, as a beautiful woman. His need for any employment being so strong, and this being a peice of erotic fiction... im sure you can guess what happens next.

The progression from unwilling self-important man to broken sexy unsure sissy is mesmerizing. Every unsure step he takes into the world of crossdressing is a sexy tease into the submission you as the reader can see coming a mile away. In fact... even though the nubile young wife is supportive, and justified in her every manipulation... even to the point of reluctant (or not-so-reluctant) domme.

trying to come out is harder than it seems

An old post... from a few weeks ago... i had typed it, saved it... and... forgot about it.. maybe it was waiting for pictures.. idk.... at this point... idc

Posting it so there's somthin new on the front page.

Update at the bottom.
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"Do you want to be a girl?" She asked as She continued to stroke my firm clit in Her panties. i 'made' Her panty me earlier with the pair She had on. ("Theses are prettier than the ones the other day..." She declared as She held them open for me to step into.)

my arms around Her back, caressing Her bare bottom under the short nighty. "Mmhhmm" was all i could muster, my shame hidden with my face in Her neck. i decided to reply with action. i slipped the nighty over her arms and shoulders, and then quickly over me. Standing there in Her nighty and panties, hugging, Her hand on my VERY stiff clit, nakkie in my arms.....

"Do you want to be a girl?... for real?" She repeated.

"mhmmm" was the best i could do.

"dress me up and... fuck me?"

She smiled. "ok, is that what you want? i'll do that for you.... sometime...."

my sissy hips thrusting in Her hand, waves of sexiness washing over me, imagining Her nakkie form behind me, fucking me, as im dressed like the sissy i NEED to be. "i want to be your sissy bitch".

"you already are," She giggled, "but, you dont look good in my clothes. you're not girly. you have a mans body, you are an ugly girl.... your body... and all the hair... the wiry greys pokin out...."

i stopped myself from pointing out that i tried to broach the subject of removing my body hair a while back... and She shot me down quickly. "i know.... the hair is ugly...." is all i could whisper.

Dejected, we separated, i gave Her back Her nighty, i released Her, turned and went about my day and Her back to Her pursuits before my selfish interruption... but at least im still wearing Her panties.... three days out of four now.. and She has  known the entire time.

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Yeah well.... this is how it seems to go... she is welcoming and playful for a few days... then cold and distant for a few weeks. If i get caught during these.. cold.. times, then all hell breaks loose.. so i wear less... or... stress more. No sex lately (2 weeks?) at all...  Certainly no response that can be considered positive if i call her my Miss, or if i wanna act a little girly, effem... she acts as if shes repulsed.

Yay me.

... and now, reading back over and over... its really quite sad.

Fuck.

my sissy heart races as i read this...

This is an amazing short piece of erotica.... worthy of a quick read. i identify with the gurl in this story sooo much! This is my dream, this is my relationship with Mommy in SL... this is how i wish it could be all the time... please, while this may be fiction, it is how i feel.... so in the spirit of showing you all my inner girl... i present for your reading pleasure:


The Countess and the Contest

Big thankkies to Anna...

Want To 'Meat' Me? hehehe....

This is scary.

I may be in Denver (or there abouts) in August i think.

It occurs to be that this may be a good opportunity to get my hole(s) used. I will be alone. You wont have to be bothered by me afterwards. If things work.. it could be a fun time for all....

Sexy or Sexual?

"mmmmmm... where's Your panties from last night? Put them on me? hehehe"

"whaa?" She cocks Her head and looks to me. Spinning and out to the hallway, She returns with the small fabric in Her hands. "These are probably too small for you...."

"Put them on me." my sissy legs in the air, stiff clit full and standing proud.

She sniffed the cotton, then held them to my nose, the soft scent of Her clean pussy barely evident. Back and forth, She would sniff and find a small source of fragrance, then place them under my nostrils, poking my nose, letting me inhale. She knows my fetish for Her musk and She enjoys it with me. She asks, "Why do you like wearing my panties so much?"

"i dunno.... they make me feel sexy i guess."

There it is. A minor slip of the tongue that i didn't catch... but She sure did.

"Sexy?...or....Sexual?" She asked with an unsure look. i realized the difference between the two, and the implications of what i actually said.... debating my replies quickly... i choose one that kept the sexy door open.

"Ummmmmm.... both, i guess" i giggled as She began slipping the blue cotton bikini's up and over my bubble butt. My hard clit bulging and lewdly displayed in the front of the tight girly undies. My eggs pulled up tight as well, as a round bulge under the clit hose... "hurt me" i requested, displaying my pantied sack.

She pouted but complied, flicking one of my eggs hard, harder, She missed, and a softer hit. She stopped. Inflicting even some soreness is not Her thing, but i like a little bit of ache sometimes.

We went about our morning, She watched me prance around dressed only in Her used undies. She walked in on my having a morning pee... i was sitting like a good girl, which - for me is not sooo unusual, but this time, when She walked in... my knees were together, clitty tucked under, panties just pulled to the knees. i was posed and pissing like a good girl. And i let Her see. Even if She didnt make the connection... im sure, somewhere inside, She will begin to see me less as a man, and more as Her little girl.

After the pee, i tucked under, but not sever... but flatter nonetheless. I made the bed and prepared my things, while wearing with no standing clit. Like a girl. She didnt complain. In fact, She left... happy?

Sissy Status Update 6/12

~OR~ A Bit of CrossDreaming To Ease The sissy Inside.

So, an update of my sissy yearnings is due.

Having less time to dress and 'live' my SL as nicole has had me a bit depressed. i have pulled out a pair of my favorite panties and been wearing more often to get that... girly feeling. Missus has been working my pussy lots.. and thats nice.... but.. shame really, she doesnt understand that i need more... lots more.

Sent my Mommy this photo the other day... was thinking about her as i was dressing for work. Think She liked it? Would you like to get this in your email?

 

Wonderful Advice for your (Fem)Domme

Ladies, with a strict orgasm denial and special occasion release programme, coupled with appropriate association training, your gurl will get to this stage too, you just have to persevere.
There’s something deeply satisfying when she gets to this point and is obviously happy at consuming her own discharges, it’s a short step to the next stage, and deep down she knows it too. Happy (dominating) days!!!


Stolen from: Transvestite Training

)) Dedicated to Raven ((

/me smiles

Futa Anime Anyone?

So... my sexual fantasies right now always have me in the submissive position...... always... it's the ONLY way i can get off anymore, and never without being filled in some way at the same time.

Doesn't matter if im looking at / thinking about... bois being fucked by pegging girls, women, Men, shemales... or girls being fucked and sucking huge cocks of trannies or Men.... or a pretty sissy being used in any way at all... doesnt matter the senario... its all works for me... i ALWAYS identify with the bottom!

And.... idont know what happened... but i never see any white stuff unless my cunt is stretched around some kind of intruder (the only exception? when the missues mounts my face, pulls my hair, and i envision a BBC plowing her pussy and ass, cumming inside / on my face).

hehe.. i dont know why i think this video is in some way related to that, giggles.... but... i thought you might like it... i sure do!

enjoy!

hit the jump to see the vid!

my Home... and Safe Place... AYA

Once upon a time i was lost.

Discouraged, alone, beaten down by the cruelty of others... i was... ready to quit being a sissy.

Then, i found Love and acceptance. Funny how what is most needed can sometimes come at the lowest point. She comforted me, nurtured me, Love me. Then She took me to Little England

YA? is dis da partay?

i like german sparkle party!
<sparkle party sparkle party>



Do you like to dancy dance?
Yes i wore my party pants!
<party pants party pants>

hehehehhehehe

i soooo want to be the chick in the pink hair. in fact.. my SL friends might recognize me in this video! <sparkle party sparkle party>

Two things a certain now.....
1. while watching the video with my family and seeing them all laugh hysterically at the craziness in it.. i was chair-dancing and dreaming of being these people. i am sooo totally gay.
2. i need some of that RED sparkle lipstick - red. sparkle. lipstick. i need it. i am soooo totally gay.

Friends and family

We take a break from our regularly scheduled sissy ramblings and hypnosis to bring you this special report:

i am in Love... and i need to share it.... so without further ado... my girlfriend (and sister!) and her daughters (and my nieces! hehe)

me... our Mommy the Governess Talin Greymyst, and of course, my beautiful Twin Sister... Twinkles the Clown Greymyst

yes.. we're twins... its a long story (soon to be posted here!)

Her daughter and my sweet niece, Bubbles Livy Flowers

isnt she the cutest thing!

You may not be able to tell, but this is here at my house, wearing a latex maids outfit, her nekko ears and tail, her obligatory clowny makeup, and oh yeah... photo evidence... a dirty nasty ciggy hanging from her mouth... "i didnt tell her to do that sis!"

and the family portrait, including Lollipop Flowers... the youngest daughter

Bubbles, Lollipop, and Twinkles

awwww... i just wanna sprinkle them all on ice cream and eat them all up!

Finally... a nice evening at home...

These are the sweetest people! And such a loving family too! We spend night after night chatting or watching TV together, dancing and attending parties, even.. *whispers*... even getting lost in the tangle of space time(!) but dont let the Daleks know! Shhhhhhhhh!

Hypno Forced Femme Story

So,, we all know im a huge fan of hypno... and forced fem is also a pet desire of mine (not that i need to be forced! hehe). Dont forget... the erotic written word is particularly sensual.

Combine these items.. and you get a hard core stroke story such as this one!

Parts are being added sloowwly... but every time a new chapter comes out i re-read from the beginning. The hypnosis is subtle, but even the hinting at it gets me all hot and bothered. The submission of the boy to his neighbor, the turning of his desires... very hot. And the latest chapter only seems to be adding fuel to the fire.

Be warned... the main char is younger... i know some shy away from that... and im no molester.. if anything.. i fantasize that the young man is me... being hypnotize to server, being feminized for a strong mans pleasure, willingly sucking and fucking and loving every moment.... omg how i wish i was the boy in this story...

Please Sir, let me help my sister clean You...

a teaser paragraph and a link to all the current chapters (on Niffty's) after the jump