Once upon a time.....
My ex wife and i
were swingers. We didn't call it that, but looking back, there's no
denying it. We would frequently use the phone flirt lines that were so
popular in the early nineties. They were normally free for women, so we
would get the number she would leave the greeting message, and then we
would suck and fondle each other as we spoke with guy after guy after
guy, and occasionally a girl.
You see.... even though i was still
in denial about being a sissy, she kinda knew it... perhaps it was the
way i liked her to peg me with candles, or the ass-play that i didn't
mind... idk. *giggles* She was quite the little repressed bi-sexual
herself as well. While i'll prolly never know the truth (she was a
g'damned dirty liar - but that's another rant for another day) when i met
her, she had had a couple of mild lesbian experiences, but loads of
fantasies - fantasies that i actively cultivated as we screwed each
other like 20 year old rabbits tend to do. She was also fascinated with
watching two men, as many girls are i guess, and she saw her chances to fulfill both our fantasies.
The phone lines were a good way to
meet like minded individuals and arrange for casual meetings... the
'Craigslist' of its day. To my dismay (not really i guess, cause i went
along...) the lines were dominated by guys (surprise!) but we found,
many times, the guys had / knew of girls , or were just fronting for the
ladies... and couples were always looking for other couples.
i
guess, at that - at that time - i was prolly closer to hetero with bi
leanings (for comparison, i would say today, i am gay with bi leanings,
hehehe). So, i didn't mind the guys. i tended to be slicker with the
ladies too, understanding them better. Many times, i was tasked with
keeping the other guy to keep calm and relax, let the ladies get acquainted, wait for the right time. More than one idiot ruined the
whole thing by being too eager. But once the action started, it would be
girl on girl, boy on girl, swap partners, etc. Sometimes a guy would be
adventurous and reach for my dick. Sometimes i would 'help' my wife by
guiding his cock inside. If there was enough alcohol... eventually i'd
be licking and tasting... sucking his dick... satisfying urges deep
within that i still couldn't admit to myself, much less anyone else...
but at that moment... i didn't care.. i would find myself lost in
lust.....
~wheww~ excuse me.... *giggles and blushes*
So.....
fast forward a bit. We were good at the game. We now had numerous
regulars. A constant stream of girls wanting my wife, a few who would
fuck me as well (wife loved watching me fuck... actively encouraged it
and thoroughly enjoyed it). There were at least twice as many regular
guys though, a a couple of couples. This whole deal went on for, idk,
3-4 years? All of the guys were at least somewhat bi, to varying degrees.
That was key for her. One time we met a friend of a friend... who actively admitted he preferred guys, but didn't mind playing with girls
too. And he brought a video camera.
This guy kinda intimidated
me.. even though i was a bit heavier, hairier, and overall more manly
than he. His openness about loving dick, his constant efforts to get me
instead of my wife, idk why it scared me, but it did. Drink drink drink.
Camera comes out.. not without many promises of total privacy... but it
also was a turn on to think that he would play the video for our mutual
fuck friends too. Smoke, Drink, Smoke, Drink...
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| Thankkies Jack :) You're a great friend! |
So there i am.
Missionary on top of my wife. Fucking away on the living room floor. The
camera is on, recording every thrust and grind. Its a slow fuck, her
legs around my hips, as i grind into her mons, kiss her face roughly,
not moving very much. you see... guys tongue was working us over at the
same time. I would feel him bury into my asshole, lick around my balls,
then id see her smile and wiggle, he must have been giving her the
same.... i remember her spreading my cheeks as he started on my hole
exclusively.... fucker ate my ass for like 45 mins straight.... at least
it seemed like that. It felt good, but strange. I was hung up on the
fact that a guy was worshiping my ass. idk... i was young.... i didn't
wanna stop... but at the same time... i wished he was a girl too....idk.
It
wasn't until we stopped fucking, when i kneeled up, she kinda led me over
to the sofa, pushing my shoulders onto the cushion, as he approached
from behind that i realized.... he had been lubing me up!
i was
mortified. i started to protest. He was calming and soothing, promising
to go slow, to not hurt me, just try it, see if you like it. She was on
my other side, stroking me, telling me how much she wanted to see it..
how hot it would make her, to do it for her, stop being a pussy..... and
be a pussy.
Trembling, i went down. On my knees, face in the
seat cushion, i expected the worst. Probably because of that, he had a
bit of a difficult time getting in. It did hurt a little.... but not
much. i know i exaggerated the fact, mainly to save my pride, but also to
get him to back off before it hurt more. Before i knew it.... i was
being rightly fucked.
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| Ummmm... not sure about this...... |
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| NNNNNN!!!!! More Lube! |
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| Oh fuck... i.. uuuuhhhhhh... i.....never... knew.... oh yeshhhhhh!!!! |
A man was inside my asshole, using it to
get off in. He took my virginity, and was masturbating his load out with
my virgin ass. omg. omg. omg. i heard myself moan like a sissy, embarrassing me further. Wife was right next to me, oooohing and ahhhing.
She would stroke my dick a bit, but not enough. Stroking... in and out
of my ass. Eventually, she got down and under me to suckle my limp dick.
idk if she wanted a closer look at my subjugation, or if she was
legitimately trying to please me, but at the time, my head wasn't
accepting. i didn't know what i had, i didn't know what i was getting. God
how i wish i could have that moment back....
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| Looking back... it was all about her desires.... |
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| Thats right you bitch! At least make me feel good too! |
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| OMG...she's sucking me! I'm being fucked! |
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| OMG! She's watchin me get breed! omg, my dickie is so small... i wish he would just cum and be done now! |
And then..... he
came. He came inside my cunt like a dirty rag. He didn't ask. He didn't
use a condom (although... all of our playtime was condom free). He just
used my hole. *BLUSH* it was sooooo embarrassing. He pulled out, she
wanted to examine me... but i was having none of it. Running to the
head, with my fingers over my hole... i sat and let his semen dribble
from me. I was sooo humiliated. Of course, i didn't come out until i knew
he was gone.
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| OMG i think he came in me! |
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| A fucking MAN CAME INSIDE ME! |
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| Get it out! Get it out! |
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| Wot does this mean? Am i a faggot now? Am i truly gay forever? A: Yes. |
Today.... i would have wiped then sucked out his
last dribbles, and eaten his faggot fuck hole as i wanked all over myself
in thankfulness for his attentions. The difference age makes...
That
was my first time. i haven't been properly fucked in many years
since....many years. While my dildo has loosened me... i feel like a
virgin again in my mind? Do you think that's okay to say? Can i call
myself a virgin again nows?
