Coming out

Soooo..... the hardest thing ive had to do in a VERY long time...

look, over there - a wild sissy appears!

i did it, in Real Life, i came out to my best friend.

YA? is dis da partay?

i like german sparkle party!
<sparkle party sparkle party>



Do you like to dancy dance?
Yes i wore my party pants!
<party pants party pants>

hehehehhehehe

i soooo want to be the chick in the pink hair. in fact.. my SL friends might recognize me in this video! <sparkle party sparkle party>

Two things a certain now.....
1. while watching the video with my family and seeing them all laugh hysterically at the craziness in it.. i was chair-dancing and dreaming of being these people. i am sooo totally gay.
2. i need some of that RED sparkle lipstick - red. sparkle. lipstick. i need it. i am soooo totally gay.

i did it again..... hehehe

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Friends and family

We take a break from our regularly scheduled sissy ramblings and hypnosis to bring you this special report:

i am in Love... and i need to share it.... so without further ado... my girlfriend (and sister!) and her daughters (and my nieces! hehe)

me... our Mommy the Governess Talin Greymyst, and of course, my beautiful Twin Sister... Twinkles the Clown Greymyst

yes.. we're twins... its a long story (soon to be posted here!)

Her daughter and my sweet niece, Bubbles Livy Flowers

isnt she the cutest thing!

You may not be able to tell, but this is here at my house, wearing a latex maids outfit, her nekko ears and tail, her obligatory clowny makeup, and oh yeah... photo evidence... a dirty nasty ciggy hanging from her mouth... "i didnt tell her to do that sis!"

and the family portrait, including Lollipop Flowers... the youngest daughter

Bubbles, Lollipop, and Twinkles

awwww... i just wanna sprinkle them all on ice cream and eat them all up!

Finally... a nice evening at home...

These are the sweetest people! And such a loving family too! We spend night after night chatting or watching TV together, dancing and attending parties, even.. *whispers*... even getting lost in the tangle of space time(!) but dont let the Daleks know! Shhhhhhhhh!

Hypno Forced Femme Story

So,, we all know im a huge fan of hypno... and forced fem is also a pet desire of mine (not that i need to be forced! hehe). Dont forget... the erotic written word is particularly sensual.

Combine these items.. and you get a hard core stroke story such as this one!

Parts are being added sloowwly... but every time a new chapter comes out i re-read from the beginning. The hypnosis is subtle, but even the hinting at it gets me all hot and bothered. The submission of the boy to his neighbor, the turning of his desires... very hot. And the latest chapter only seems to be adding fuel to the fire.

Be warned... the main char is younger... i know some shy away from that... and im no molester.. if anything.. i fantasize that the young man is me... being hypnotize to server, being feminized for a strong mans pleasure, willingly sucking and fucking and loving every moment.... omg how i wish i was the boy in this story...

Please Sir, let me help my sister clean You...

a teaser paragraph and a link to all the current chapters (on Niffty's) after the jump

Sex video... learn some tips!

So.. if i could get fucked.. if i had a real life boyfriend, or even a gurlfriend or Mistress.... this is how i think i would fuck. Watching it.. i realized this is how i fuck my dildo... pushing back.. NEEDING it deeper, pounding me harder.

I dont know what they are saying in most of this video... but i understand every word.... she wants his COCK, and BAD too...

just look at her face and tell me you dont wanna change places with her right now!

god i need to get filled.....

anyway, enjoy! vid after the jump...

Addiction spreads... be warned

The best thing to happen to my sissy persona has to be discovering certain blogs...

Annamalice, Felicia's, Desires of a Submissive Gurly Boi, as well as a few others...  really let me know that there are many, many others who have the same feelings i do.. the same internal struggle... panties or boxers?... Hmmmm.....

But i guess, the MOST influential blog has to be 'Second Life Sissy Fag'. Run by a wanna be faggot, Seven Jonstone... her blog was the one that introduced me to the wonderful place where i can be exactly whoever i needed to be. A place where i can 'live' as nicolette. A place where i could (and have) fully explore my sissy side, and eventually discover and love the joys of submission.

Second Life is an amazing place, where you can find others who are similar in desire, hang out with friends, who understand, support, and encourage you. It is a place where a faggot can be a faggot, a furry can live as furry, a sub can find a Mistress, and whatever, whoever you desire could be yours.

Yeah... that's her... and yes... she IS fucking a pig... hehe gotta love SL!

Thank You Seven.... you have affected this sissy for the positive, you have lead a lost gurl to paradise. SL has brought me wonder and love and friendship and acceptance.

Please check out her blog, wondrous discoveries await you!

 http://secondlifesissy.blogspot.com

please... feedback is needed

So, this is a portion of an email i sent to a loved one.

i think this is how i really feel... but i would very much appreciate any thoughts any of you have on the subject. As i am finding out, BDSM means different things to different people. But if there's one thing that seems to be consistent in the community is, most respect that others have different opinions, and the general feeling is... if it works for you then congratulations, have fun. So, with this openess in mind, i wish to share... and find out, do any of you agree with me? Does anyone disagree? why or why not?

i consider myself very inexperienced, only ever having two owners, and really, as time goes, mostly only one. i am always actively trying to learn and be a better sub, and learning comes through sharing and discussing. so please... help me and any who may be to shy to contribute, but curious enough to read... please help me and tell me... am i right? wrong? are my expectations too high? or not enough?

BDSM discussion email selection after the jump:

MUST. WATCH. NOW.

Annamalice Sissy Self Hypnosis: #1029 - Sissy Lollypops by Annamalice

i have a new fetish.....

Sexy Clownz R Sexy

H.O.T.

giggles

Cocksucking Clowny Slut!

Service me clown whore!

Dedicated to my beautiful twin



'Nuff said

Such a WHORE! (SL only discussion)

So... it's been a few more days... almost no crying at all now (i still get teary-eyes a few times a day, but i seem to be able to control it now...). Settling in at my new home. my family has been soooo AbFab! i mean.. never have you seen so many people try to sincerely help a stranger...  i mean, i might have said 'Hi' to them at one point in the past, but its obvious half of them dont remember me, and yet... they are still very tender with me.... i couldn't ever think this would be where i am right now.

Princess made the right choice... sending me to me new Mommy (She lets me call Her Mommy.. OMG, can i tell you how AWESOME that is!?!). i didn't really know Mommy at first, i mean, i KNEW Her... but not really... What a wonderful Woman.... i could go on and one...

But the point of this post.....

So.... my new home is a BDSM based location / group. And obviously.. there is some chat/sex going on (although... you would never know it by just observing, it's all very classy). AT first i was scared... thinking a visiting Master or Mistress would want to 'use' me.... but i guess i lucked out.. and other times... well, let's say i enjoy Mommies protection.... but it was scary....

Princess and i had an 'open' relationship.... but that really meant that i would service Her other slaves/ pets/ when She wasn't around. i could have fooled around, but i never wanted to.... without being told, i want to be monogamous (which of course, led to the only two times i was ever REALLY a bad girl for Her... i guess the green monster of jealousy is stronger than i thought). But.. the point is, i guess im a one-partner girl.. or maybe WAS.... idk

That being said.. before i met Princess... i WAS quite the slut.... really... even begging... giggles... i tried to be a stripper and was okay at that... and then tried to be an escort because i was fucking anything that moved anyway... problem was? i couldnt get paid for what i was giving away for free anyway.. giggles.. and i never said no....

So.. here i am today.... been monogamous for months.. recent widow... new home... new family.... and what do i do? i end up in bed with a lover.

i think Princess would have wanted it... i think She smiled on me at the moment.... but i still feel guilty, even today, almost a full day later... i really like my new friend... i wanna tell you all about her... but i haven't gotten permission.... (maybe she'll 'out' herself in the comments, giving me permission to discuss her and post tasteful pics, wouldnt that be sexy?!)

i might be rebounding... scratch that... i probably am... but idk... this is SL, relationships come and go like the tide for many ppl... maybe im being foolish falling in love over and over and over... but... maybe.... this will help me move on too? i mean... since i met her, i haven't had too much time to feel sad... its nice to have a good feeling too sometimes....