Friday, March 2, 2012

Such a WHORE! (SL only discussion)

So... it's been a few more days... almost no crying at all now (i still get teary-eyes a few times a day, but i seem to be able to control it now...). Settling in at my new home. my family has been soooo AbFab! i mean.. never have you seen so many people try to sincerely help a stranger...  i mean, i might have said 'Hi' to them at one point in the past, but its obvious half of them dont remember me, and yet... they are still very tender with me.... i couldn't ever think this would be where i am right now.

Princess made the right choice... sending me to me new Mommy (She lets me call Her Mommy.. OMG, can i tell you how AWESOME that is!?!). i didn't really know Mommy at first, i mean, i KNEW Her... but not really... What a wonderful Woman.... i could go on and one...

But the point of this post.....

So.... my new home is a BDSM based location / group. And obviously.. there is some chat/sex going on (although... you would never know it by just observing, it's all very classy). AT first i was scared... thinking a visiting Master or Mistress would want to 'use' me.... but i guess i lucked out.. and other times... well, let's say i enjoy Mommies protection.... but it was scary....

Princess and i had an 'open' relationship.... but that really meant that i would service Her other slaves/ pets/ when She wasn't around. i could have fooled around, but i never wanted to.... without being told, i want to be monogamous (which of course, led to the only two times i was ever REALLY a bad girl for Her... i guess the green monster of jealousy is stronger than i thought). But.. the point is, i guess im a one-partner girl.. or maybe WAS.... idk

That being said.. before i met Princess... i WAS quite the slut.... really... even begging... giggles... i tried to be a stripper and was okay at that... and then tried to be an escort because i was fucking anything that moved anyway... problem was? i couldnt get paid for what i was giving away for free anyway.. giggles.. and i never said no....

So.. here i am today.... been monogamous for months.. recent widow... new home... new family.... and what do i do? i end up in bed with a lover.

i think Princess would have wanted it... i think She smiled on me at the moment.... but i still feel guilty, even today, almost a full day later... i really like my new friend... i wanna tell you all about her... but i haven't gotten permission.... (maybe she'll 'out' herself in the comments, giving me permission to discuss her and post tasteful pics, wouldnt that be sexy?!)

i might be rebounding... scratch that... i probably am... but idk... this is SL, relationships come and go like the tide for many ppl... maybe im being foolish falling in love over and over and over... but... maybe.... this will help me move on too? i mean... since i met her, i haven't had too much time to feel sad... its nice to have a good feeling too sometimes....

1 comment:

  1. thank you for writting this i'm a sissy who wants to be a cum whore and it's nice to know others feel the same way.

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