two months ago... i was immersed in grief. and then... with the help of friends i was able to climb out of it. sure i have depression.. most of my life... with varing degrees of sadness and dis-function... but this time... its different.
Getting ahead of myself. my saddness lasted for a few weeks, but new friends, new family, new scenery... i was able to put the sadness behind me.
Now... its all back. Except this time? its not just grief. i feel... sad.. anxious... lonely... depressed... ready to scream and lash out, ready to cry and sob (which i have been doing, lots), ready to runa away and retreat.
i wanna hide
i dont wanna talk to anyone
i dont wanna be plesant and greet and give tours... i dont wanna be good
i just want company
i just want to be held
i just need to be loved
im so tired of putting on a good face
im sooo sad... and i just want someone to ruvb my head as i cry
im soo lonely.
i Miss You soo much